| Not exactly friends only, but... |
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What is written here is NOT intended to be malicious or offensive to any parties whatsoever, but if one is uncomfortable with explicit content, metaphor, hyperbole, or any other symptoms of freewriting, consider this a warning. What may be blatant may be veiled, and what may be lost in vague adjectives may be conveyed as literally as seen fit.
I understand that this is the Internet, which is a public, full-access realm, albeit virtual. If I were afraid of the world reading what I write, I wouldn't put it on the Internet. Please heed this standard as you traverse my entries. If qualms arise regarding my archives, especially if heavily buried, please take the evolution of my past to present state into account.
With this disclaimer in mind, feel free to proceed.
This post exists because it's evidently needed, seeing how some people have taken personal offense to or responsibility for what I purge into the bowels of the Internet and have chosen to confront me about it in person. Just remember: if I wanted to hurt you, I already would have, and I wouldn't be subtle about it.
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| Hey, I'm not alone! |
[25 Nov 2009|06:29 pm] |
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A 'national crisis' of student suicide: Colleges are straining to help young people who are struggling with depression and mental health issues.
This, along with finally being at home with my whole family, has really raised my spirits. I went looking through a lot of my old art and emo scrawlings from high school and I feel like I found a little bit of myself again. I was looking through a bunch of old scraps from when I'd doodle during class or just because I felt like it, and I realized I need to just draw more. Write more. Get my feelings out; fucking power through this. I knew the solution all along, as I told myself and as many wonderful people who do care about me told me-- "Be yourself and don't give a fuck"-- but now I'm really harnessing the power of that statement. I've realized that ever since I made Madrid, I've wanted him to be something real. I found some fantasy races I made up near the end of high school-- the Cretians and the Naulhaiti-- and I even found a comic I started about them.
The problem that remains is substituting a female character suitable for the situation that isn't a representation of myself. Referring toBlatantly drawing myself in the comic is dumb. It just exemplifies how Mary Sue the whole thing is, and that's the last thing I want. I almost thought of using Arete, but I'm not much like her. Arete and Edithe are part of their own world, Azeroth, and that's where they belong. I don't think Madrid and Arete would get along very well anyway.
I need to create a female character that can properly interact with Madrid and slip into the story of Sunspot, but I don't know if I'm capable. What I think is going to end up happening is that I'll draw biographical comics as I usually did, and Madrid's backstory and everything will be mentioned in a fourth-wall-shattering recount of events: "I wanted to draw you a comic, but I wanted to act AND direct. Because of my selfishness-- something Sunspot is supposed to tell the reader NOT to be-- that idea is on an indefinite hiatus."
And Madrid would shrug and say, "Sounds like everything else in your life."
So instead of letting him free in his own world within my imagination, he's chained to me in this corrupted world to tolerate my whining and lack of inspiration and mundane obstacles I "endure".
When I learn to let go, don't worry Madrid! I will set your body freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee |
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[24 Nov 2009|08:30 pm] |
Stolen from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) oolong, xbiteyourtongue, and darkmistyday
You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. (:
1. First Name
Rita. Other names include Arete, Rabbit, Zomb, and "bead girl". I'm "lime_gl0wstix" pretty much everywhere on the Internet.
2. Age
19. Too old.
3. Location
I live on campus at Cal State University, Long Beach. My home is in the valley.
4. Occupation
Student in pre-Illustration. I don't think I'm doing very well.
5. Partner
Alone.
6. Kids
I don't believe I'll be having any.
7. Brothers/Sisters
An older sister, rapturedsound and a younger brother, Paul.
8. Pets
A red-tailed boa constrictor named Topaz.
9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life
- Starting a new semester for school eventually. My planned schedule is something like Comic Spirit, Drawing, Art History 111B, Artists in Their Own Words, and maybe Japanese 201. I can't take too many GEs too early on or my schedule will be too impacted by art classes and I won't have time for them all.
- Jamie and I are planning to go to Paganfest next May, where we'll see Finntroll, Eluveitie, Alestorm, and Arkona. With most of the new hardcore coming out sounding like shit, folk metal is energized enough to fill the gap for me.
- Speaking of music, I've been listening to mostly oldschool stuff, like mid 90s gabber and more Italo Disco.
- I'm going home for Thanksgiving. Thank god.
- That's uh... that's about it..
10. Parents
My mom and dad are wonderful people. My mom likes to play Facebook games with me, and recently my dad suffered nerve damage in his arm, along with several other problems. From what I know there are 3-4 things wrong with him, including a shot rotator cuff. He can't lift his right arm more than halfway, but declined the surgery for several reasons. One, the surgery would fuse his vertebrae, which could result in him losing his voice, paralysis, or even death. The surgery isn't even a guaranteed solution to his problem because of his other contributing injuries. To deal with the pain, my dad's been prescribed some pretty intense medication, and he's trying not to get addicted to it. We're hoping that the longer he refrains from using his right arm, the better he'll recover. The doctor hasn't been able to make any predictions, considering my dad is one of the first people to ever refuse surgery for this issue. Either it'll stay the same or get better, because there's little to no chance of it getting worse.
11. Who are some of your closest friends?
At school I mostly hang out with Seth and Ryan. Seth's been really busy lately so I've been hanging out with Ryan more. Both are political science majors and live in the same suite together.
Since quitting WoW, most of my online conversation has been with Jennii reivena and Jamie. |
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[17 Nov 2009|09:53 pm] |
 | I've been trying to draw more. I'm going to try to update a drawing a day, though I'll most likely fall behind like I do with everything else.
Art class is a whole bunch of cocks. I'm losing more and more faith in myself every day.
My appointment with the psychiatrist is scheduled for the 30th. Hopefully they won't ask about whether or not I'd let Freddy Krueger fuck me this time. |
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[02 Nov 2009|12:25 am] |
Why do I love it?
Maybe some sort of heinous radioactive backfire reminiscent of Chernobyl will sweep the land, sprouting deformities of skin and appendages among the general population. Then I will find love. |
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[31 Oct 2009|01:58 pm] |
Bitches don't know bout my evil deed
HAPPY HALLOWEEN |
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[19 Oct 2009|11:52 pm] |
Sometimes I think my only muses are my creations. In some sort of sick, cyclical conspiracy, I stay in that world so I can further create it... so I can stay there.
"Bad enough they lie... they always promise they'll stay."
You're the only one who's stayed. Hopefully because you wanted to. |
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[08 Oct 2009|10:54 am] |
Day One: a song
Day Two: a picture
Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
Finally getting around to this again. Midterms, art projects, papers, museum visits, dentist appointments, field trips, and so on...
For your YouTube clips I will present a double-feature for my absence: three random clips and a short movie.
Back when cartoons were hand-drawn and hilarious:
Maru the cat. Most of the videos are relatively silent.
Badass Belgian Beatboxing. WHAM ALLITERATION
And for the short movie, one of my current obsessions: Suur Toll (Big Tyll/Tyll the Giant).
It's separated into two parts above at a total of 15 or so minutes. It's based on a story of Estonian mythology, more of which can be read about here if you're confused. It's haunting and bizarre and I love it!
Off to class again...
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[26 Sep 2009|04:22 pm] |
Day One: a song
Day Two: a picture
Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
- Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
Okay well, since I'm not very good at doing this daily, I'll give you a BUNCH of sites to make up for it.
1. I believe this was linked on ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) kandykidz, but this string is really worth it. It's a little bit thicker than the usual 5yd string (by perhaps a millimeter) but MUCH more durable, doesn't fray, 144 yards, and stretches a good amount without being loose. Shipping is a little insane (I think it was like $8?) but if you combine it with a few other items it's not so bad.
I haven't tried this black string yet, but it's the same thickness and twice the length (288yd) for a similar price. Shipping is about the same, however.
2. I was recently introduced to the Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab by a friend on Warcraft, Alinor. She was lamenting that they didn't sell "imp's ears" (sampler sizes) of their motherfucking Hellboy-themed perfume oils, to which I sympathize with her greatly. Check out their other stuff too. They have tons of themed perfumes from Gothic poetry to steampunk to Neil Gaiman short stories to traveling snake-oil salesmen to Alice in Wonderland. Don't you want to smell like the Cheshire Cat?!
P.S. Hellboy's specific scent includes "aftershave, candy wrappers, brimstone, and cat". Such scents incite nothing less than the epitome of manliness in my mind.
3. Send this short prose along to all of your near and dear anime-drawing associates that say, "Anime is my style, so it doesn't matter if I learn realism."
4. If you have friends that are more of the American strain, or if you're ready for the most bittersweet, hysterical exposition of events in self-taught art, check out Rob Liefeld's 40 Worst Drawings.
5. I love the classic Pokémon, but not all of them. "We buried our heads in the sand and let robots worm their way into our ranks." Sound familiar, ThoBro?
6. And last but certainly not least... the ever-amazing Hate By Numbers at Cracked.com.
Tomorrow I'll try to be more on top of things! And only a day left to ink and color Dustmeat... and do my art projects... and study for Art History... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
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| FFFFFFFFF I SKIPPED A DAY |
[24 Sep 2009|02:13 pm] |
Day One: a song
Day Two: a picture
- Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
- Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
Yesterday was very busy. I had my first official Natural Disasters Lab (no thanks to furlough days) which went from 11 to 1:45, and then right after I had the Natural Disasters Lecture from 2-3:15. I got home after eating nothing but a granola bar and I felt pretty wiped out. My schedule is currently...
| Time | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday |
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| 8:00AM | | | | | | 9:00AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM |
| 10:00AM | | | | |
| 11:00AM | | | GEOL 110L 11AM-1:45PM | |
| 12:00PM | | AH 111A 12:30-1:45PM | AH 111A 12:30-1:45PM |
| 1:00PM | |
| 2:00PM | GEOL 110 2:00-3:15PM | | GEOL 110 2:00-3:15PM | |
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| 4:00PM | | ART 131 4:00-6:45PM | | ART 131 4:00-6:45PM |
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It also took me an eternity to make this table from scratch! Woohooo!
Anyway, for your book.
I've been reading mostly my textbooks, but in terms of leisure reading I've been slowly thumbing through Eve Forward's Villains By Necessity. It's an interesting novel so far (I'm only on chapter 3) with some intriguing characters, albeit predictable at times. I'm hoping the further I get into it, the more the characters will develop an hopefully introduce some meandering in their personalities. The author has revealed a hint of backstory for the main character, an assassin named Sam, that may pertain to his present state as a villain.
It's written by the aunt of a friend of mine on Warcraft, John. We've hung out a few times and he's a pretty simple guy, but his family is breathtaking. His father, Bob Forward, has worked on several TV series as an animator, writer, and is an author of his own book and movie. His mother, Sharon Forward, attended school at Cal State Long Beach (my campus), and works for Disney. She lent my sister and I a book each according to our interests, mine being Villains By Necessity and Julia's being Dragon's Egg by Bob Forward Sr.
Augh, I'm late for 2D... and I still have to pick up bond paper! Yuck! |
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| Day two! |
[22 Sep 2009|10:31 am] |
Day One: a song
- Day Two: a picture
- Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
- Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
Here's a macro of me being a wee loli, for lack of something better.
( Also, here's the drawing of Dustmeat that I have to color for the WoW_artxchange )
Arurgghhh I need to bust out my tablet tonight after I'm finished with my classes and color and ink it :[ |
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| GUESS I BETTER DO THIS NOW |
[21 Sep 2009|02:40 am] |
Inspired by (ripped off from) seashellz & twilighttttt
- Day One: a song
- Day Two: a picture
- Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
- Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
It is day one. So!
The Aquarium, composed by Camille Saint-Saëns, is a movement from The Carnival of the Animals that Disney has referenced time and again, such as in the Beauty and the Beast soundtrack and by being remixed for the Space Mountain ride at Disneyland.
I should post more cheery things in my LiveJournal :|
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| Dumping time (not as gross as it sounds) |
[31 Aug 2009|07:54 pm] |
The sound transformation, the frequency response, the changing modulation, harmonica creation...
( More here! )
None of these are serious sketches more than they are just doodles. I recognize quite a few glaring mistakes that I should have caught even mindlessly doodling. My pool of inspiration is shallow and I don't know why. Well, I do and don't.
The single room is working out just fine. It's already day two, but the suitemates seem to already display personality beyond what I've previously endured. I've learned my "lesson", however, and won't count my chickens before they're hens. DoHOHOhohoh
My family helped me move into my room. We ate at Ruby's afterward, completely burn out from driving and moving furniture upstairs in 100 degree heat (and without oxygen too, thanks to the many wildfires). Although I was pretty full, I got a milkshake for three reasons:
1) Milkshakes are delicious.
2) It would be my last taste of semi-awesome food before a year of the dining hall.
3) Got to spend an extra half an hour and a good laugh with my family.
Saw Julie & Julia with my sister Julia :] It was uplifting at first but the end was so abrupt and dismal. After checking out the real blog online, I felt Julia's decision was justified. It was still an oddly haphazard ending for a movie that was supposed to invigorate dreamers.
Met a guy today named Brian/Ryan at the meeting, seems pretty cool. Talked with Seth and he drove me to Del Taco, where I have never eaten before. This half pound burrito is pretty goooooood :o
That's right, no eloquent metaphors today. Just getting adjusted... everything seems to be on naptime, lol. Oh, and my Natural Disasters course is promising. Tomorrow morning I'll find out if Japanese will be the same. |
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[19 Aug 2009|02:41 am] |
I need to jump into the real world. Combing through a lot of things-- Facebook friends, Myspace stuff, AIM buddy lists and so on. If you don't know my newest screen name, please learn it. I'm going to disconnect my others from my main account because, frankly, if they're IMing me on a screen name more than 4 years old, I don't have much to say to them.
I'm going to try to find a lot of old profiles out on the Internet and delete them from things I don't use (last.fm, etc.)
If you've talked to me within the last two years, you have no need to worry. |
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| It wasn't my *favorite* photo I've ever taken, but I guess it wasn't theirs either. |
[12 Aug 2009|12:50 pm] |
So yesterday I just went around applying for whatever scholarships I was applicable for on a whim. I don't take very many photos, but I decided to submit one for kicks even though the contest ends tonight, and there was no way in hell I was going to spam my networking sites with requests for votes.
What's inappropriate? Living in the middle of Los Angeles it's not every day I see a dead animal (unless it's splattered in the middle of the road), so I thought it was interesting enough to take a picture of. It's just nature in action.
Well, aside from the cigarette butt. |
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[08 Jul 2009|12:21 am] |
Leave me a comment and I will give you a letter. Then, write 10 things that you love starting with that letter. Post the list in your journal. Give out letters to your commenters in return. twilighttttt gave me the letter "D".
1. Drawing
2. Disney(land)
3. Digital music
4. Duck(ling)s
5. Demons
6. Drumsticks (ice cream)
7. Daffodils
8. Dollar stores
9. Denny's
10. Diet Pepsi
This was surprisingly difficult :0 |
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| Doodle Meme from wyna_hiros |
[26 Jun 2009|08:36 pm] |
Though I don't think I even have ten friends...
"The first 10 people to comment on this post get to request a sketch of a subject/character of their choosing from me. Post all fandoms you're willing to draw for."
In terms of quality and practice:
God tier: Warcraft/World of Warcraft, Pokémon (Generations I & II are best)
Mediocre tier: Hellboy, some Star Wars, Jhonen Vasquez work, original characters, mythological creatures/demons, some Disney (probably in my style.. and it's best to avoid animals)
Shit tier: Naruto, Death Note, Neon Genesis Evangelion, One Piece, Hellsing
(Keep in mind that my exposure and depth into these shows is next to nil, so if you mention an obscure or late-debuted character, I may have trouble with it).
Please note these are quick sketches: they'll be available as replies to this post as I finish them (not necessarily in order). I'll edit this post to reflect when the ten comments and their requests are filled.
Fuck, I'll pretty much draw anything. Just make me active again. |
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