| Not exactly friends only, but... |
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What is written here is NOT intended to be malicious or offensive to any parties whatsoever, but if one is uncomfortable with explicit content, metaphor, hyperbole, or any other symptoms of freewriting, consider this a warning. What may be blatant may be veiled, and what may be lost in vague adjectives may be conveyed as literally as seen fit.
I understand that this is the Internet, which is a public, full-access realm, albeit virtual. If I were afraid of the world reading what I write, I wouldn't put it on the Internet. Please heed this standard as you traverse my entries. If qualms arise regarding my archives, especially if heavily buried, please take the evolution of my past to present state into account.
With this disclaimer in mind, feel free to proceed.
This post exists because it's evidently needed, seeing how some people have taken personal offense to or responsibility for what I purge into the bowels of the Internet and have chosen to confront me about it in person. Just remember: if I wanted to hurt you, I already would have, and I wouldn't be subtle about it.
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[19 Jan 2010|12:16 am] |
Who will support hard dance?
I rue the fact that I had to be born in the wake of the rave scene in America. Before even a fleeting thought of my existence was conceived, New Beat was skulking around the Belgian underground alongside starry-eyed Acid House. A year after I was born, Human Resource declared that there was no other Dominator. When I was scrawling on the walls in crayon, Q-Tex released Power of Love and Spiral Tribe was causing free festival ruckus throughout the United Kingdom. While I was enduring cursive and multiplication tables, bouncy techno was alive and kicking. And thanks to Rotterdam's bully influence it was kicking in the teeth, further filling the steel toe shoes that a name like "hardcore" entitled.
Fast forward through a nightmarish middle school and land on my fifteenth birthday, where I've been tantalized by Blatant Beats, Evolution, and Quosh for the better part of the new millennium and can't wait to see this for myself. Just as I possess enough cognitive thought to appreciate the euphoria derived from the 303 and spastic piano keys reverberating off the stained cement walls of an abandoned warehouse, I face a disturbing reality. I'm only able to ride the rave bus for a few years before it drives away to, fuck, I don't know, I guess to Arizona or something with the Cheddarcore family. Just as I thought all was lost, Kids of the Core bring hardcore back with a vengeance, going as far as to claim Union Station in its honor. Together, DJ En3rgy and Lord Of Hardcore Scott Brown paved the road with Miles of Smiles. The Kids even established a Home Bass for secure, quality parties. However, after the fifth time PLUR pounded from their speakers, it dissipated into the forest and culminated with the closure of Raver Ranch. With nothing but kandi and a mental library as my only evidence of the journey I stuck it out, hoping the bus would return to its regular schedule.
So while I'm waiting at this metaphorical bus stop, this contraption lurches up, lifelessly churns out a bunch of fidget-electro-pillowtrance-jumpstepdubstyle trash, and decides to park it for a while. Out of nowhere a bunch of fungible, aptly-named "Scene" kids start inhaling the smog from this thing's tailpipe and chewing the pile of refuse like it was their last meals. Suddenly they latch onto the kandi I'm wearing and grind their teeth against it, relishing it as the only indication of anything vaguely related to last decade's idea of rave. It being their only connection, they pervert and exploit kandi as something grandiose-- a catch-all symbol of all that is rave, a rave logo-- in hopes of branding themselves as members of this too-cool cult. Tomes go unread, chants go unsung, and whatever prophet had blessed the turntables as holy relics and then "let there be rave" was never called forth again. In the midst of their despicably sweaty ceremonies, overpriced and overcrowded recruitment seminars, and sea of glossy Hudson flyers, a humble bell jingles and a light reflects in the corner of my eye.
I turn and see the beyond adventurous Beat Drop bicycle with room for one more, and I know just where they're headed. As we're pedaling away from the prepubescent club chaos, I feel safe knowing I'm seated in the only hope for a kick drum lead track above 150 BPM.
Beat Drop Music is not enough. |
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| Movies of 2010 |
[03 Jan 2010|05:59 pm] |
So yeah, I guess I'm doing this too. One hundred movies for 2010.
1. The Thief and the Cobbler (ReCobbled 2007 cut) If you love Aladdin and quality animation, WATCH THIS FILM. You will never be able to go back. This an exquisite example of animation as an artform.
"Many of the Disney animators who worked on Aladdin had come from working with Richard Williams on Thief (since it had been in production since '68, a LOT of top animators had had a hand in it at some point), which Williams had planned shot-for-shot years before Aladdin went into pre-production. It may be a little far-fetched to surmise that Disney specifically set out to wreak havoc on Thief for their own welfare (although, given the company's scruples, it's entirely possible), but it's hard to deny that at least some of Aladdin's elements cross the fine line between inspiration and blatant rip-off."
2. Raggedy Ann & Andy: A Musical Adventure I thought the Cobbler looked a lot like Raggedy Andy from the animated movie of my youth, and sure enough Richard Williams is behind this one as well. After rewatching this with a clear conscious and a lifted veil of innocence, I realize how extremely disturbing this movie is. From the folksy, suicidal, hallucinating camel to the gluttonous candy blob to the inflatable German dwarf king to the tentacled tickler, this movie is incredibly insane. The Nostalgia Critic sums it up the best: "...it was one of the first films to ever be based on the dolls, so nobody really knew what to do with it. So, they decided to do anything they wanted with it, adding the strangest images ever to be associated with the character. ...Most kids were freaked out by this movie, which caused a whole generation of kids to be scared by [Raggedy Ann]."
3. The Secret of Kells This movie doesn't officially release in America until March 12, 2010, but I saw a premiere screening at the Egyptian Theatre today in Hollywood.
This movie was breathtaking and absolutely beautiful. There wasn't a moment where I sat without my mouth agape in awe. Inspired by the aforementioned masterpiece The Thief and the Cobbler and stylized much like Samurai Jack and Clone High, Kells uses colored outlines, distinct shapes, and sharp, angular movements to define each character in the film. Don't be fooled by its "tweened" appearance-- the mixed media involved in the backdrops and landscapes disperses any delusions of it being low-budget. Watercolor backgrounds, collages, chalk, and entirely hand-drawn animation minimizes any 3D influences, limiting computer usage merely to a few shadows and symbols. Not only is Kells a true work of art, but it is also extremely entertaining and appropriate for many audiences. It's tame and whimsical enough even for small children to stay entranced, but inspiring and sophisticated enough for adults to appreciate it as well (even if they aren't animation aficionados). This isn't a Disney princess musical: it's a reach into the fine line between what we deem history and myth; a reevaluation of the truth behind ancient beliefs as we transition into new ones; a magical exploration of intertwining facts and mystery of the medieval illuminated manuscripts. Aesthetically pleasing from the visual assortment within the animation to the auditory immersion with its Celtic folk soundtrack, Kells is a MUST SEE movie. I am so honored I got to see this premiere (especially with a proper, non-texting/baby-crying audience) and I will probably grab some friends to see it again when it debuts in March.
97 more to go! Any suggestions are welcome, though animated movies are preferred. :] |
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[25 Dec 2009|10:14 pm] |
Thor (9:35:48 PM): [My brother] is an entire world away, at least musically Thor (9:35:51 PM): [My sister]… Thor (9:35:53 PM): … lol Thor (9:35:57 PM): so yeah Thor (9:35:58 PM): wolfkid Me (9:36:51 PM): <-- Me (9:36:55 PM): i wouldn't say wolves Me (9:36:57 PM): maybe uh Me (9:37:00 PM): i dunno Me (9:37:02 PM): raccoons or something Me (9:37:02 PM): HAHA Me (9:37:04 PM): for me Me (9:37:13 PM): RACCOON WOMAN

P.S. Drawn with a touchpad |
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| NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS |
[22 Dec 2009|04:04 am] |
1. Delete all your retarded Facebook apps. No more Farmville, no more Pet Society, no more Happy Aquarium. Keep Cafe World until you unlock all of the recipes, then put up a bunch of quiche and forget about it. This is just like Warcraft-- it obligates you, it keeps you at home, and the worst part is that YOU DON'T EVEN INTERACT WITH ANYONE. At least in WoW you were creating stories and friendships.
2. Draw every single day. NO EXCEPTIONS. You are an art student now, and you are failing. Drawing isn't the elective anymore. Drawing comes first. GEs come second. Carry a sketchbook (for fuck's sake), whip it out, and draw what you see. Which brings me to the next point...
3. SPEND. MORE. TIME. OUT. SIDE. Sit under a tree and draw the napping people, people on their phones, students sitting outside class, people eating, just fucking DRAW PEOPLE.
4. Read at least one book a month for leisure. If you don't do this, it better be because you actually sat and read your textbook.
5. READ YOUR TEXTBOOKS. Shit is expensive and you complain that you're bored, so occupy yourself with your learning material.
6. Get your fucking education and license and DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE. People might go to raves with you if they weren't doing you the favor. Force your brother too. He will thank you (and so will the rest of your family).
7. Stay involved in the EDM club. You aren't 21 so that thing at Que Sera was a bust, but at least you went. The first week you get back on campus, distribute the flyers around the school, especially the dorms. You remember your elation-- now share it with another raver who might be hiding away.
8. It might be hard without the support, but pretend every day is Raver Day, at least in the way you talk to people. Smile, be open, and act like you actually have something to offer the other person. Remember what PLUR means and live by it every day the best you can. "Beads or black WOW T-Shirts"... hahaha, fuck them! YOU ARE A RAVER. You go to raves, other ravers LOVE your kandi, and you revere the drum machine, no matter the BPM.
9. If you don't draw one day, you need to make a kandi cuff. Yes, PUNISHMENT. But then you'll have more trade kandi, especially as personals! There are a lot of lovely people you can make personal kandi for. You know who they are!
10. Also, if you could find out where to get accordion lessons, that would be pretty sweet. Jamie would suggest Rosetta Stone, Gaulish Edition.
People that love you have been telling you these things all along and it's time for you to start applying them. Jennii, Jamie, Amanda, Neil, Matthew, Chii, your family, ravers known and unknown, roleplayers, WoW players, and countless others have told you this all along. Honor them! Blood and thunder!
GRAB 2010 BY THE HORNS AND KNEE IT IN THE TEETH |
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| ART AND SHIT (finally) |
[17 Dec 2009|04:41 am] |
 This was my final project for ART130: 2-D Foundation Art. Probably 10+ hours including unused sketches/linework. 22x30.
( Full image and details under the cut )
I also decided to take a stab at meeleena's meaningful outfit meme! Stolen from the ever-inspiring and talented miss muura. Why are Fins so fucking talented?!
1. Take the name of a character of yours and find out what it means. http://www.behindthename.com/ 2. Go to http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/search.sets and type in the meaning of the name. 3. Draw your character in the second outfit that comes up. (If something that isn't clothes comes up, skip to the third.)
 ( Arete, Edithe, Ingrid, Cole/Madrid, Vromme (Optik), and ...myself. In a dress. )
I also slaved away on a fucking epic kandi cuff for Rain. ( IT'S FUCKING HUGE. )
I can't wait for Raver Day this Saturday. Getting all of my major finals out of the way is so rewarding. I don't think I did very well on both my art history final (aside from the essay questions, shit was so cash easy as pie) or on my Japanese oral exam. I blanked out on "umare" and so I couldn't even ask what month Sensei Kataoka was born in. Embarrassing.
All of that fucking non-representational art I was confined to in that foundation course sowed some seeds of rebellion in my sketching gene. It felt just amazing to break those chains with the meme up there and scribble some fucking characters that I could LOOK AT. Five hours of blind contour drawing... never again. I made about 15 other drawings and paintings that weren't placed on the canvas, all of them abstract and over half of them blind contour sketches.
NEVER. AGAIN. Not without more sleep and time, anyway. Compressing all of that into a single weekend mixed with the scents of rubber cement and white out and paint hanging stagnant in the air was a head-splitting nightmare.
I've been listening to lots of techno, mostly hard tekno and tribal. Really digging the harder, teknival Spiral Tribe stuff like FKY and Guigoo and Swedish techno like Ben Sims (though that shit gets repetitive, I will admit). I also really wish I had more jungle. If anyone's got artist suggestions, I'd love to check them out!
I'm better friends with Ryan now. Seth has ultimately been too busy to hang out with either of us, but we try to invite him to dinner and such when we can. Whenever he does hang out, he has alcohol, which makes me a little uncomfortable and irritated (only because the two of them ramble on about political science when they drink). I'm looking forward to next semester. Drawing class, fuck yeah! |
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[09 Dec 2009|12:03 am] |

lol gamecube
In other news, the first meeting of the Electronic Dance Music club was a great success. There's an event Thursday night, and I'm most likely going. It's only three bucks, shit! |
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[04 Dec 2009|05:05 pm] |

THE FOOT IS TOO HIGH ERRGGHH |
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[01 Dec 2009|06:58 pm] |
So yeah i've been drawing but they've all been of Madrid rocking with his cock out.
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| Hey, I'm not alone! |
[25 Nov 2009|06:29 pm] |
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| | contemplative | ] | A 'national crisis' of student suicide: Colleges are straining to help young people who are struggling with depression and mental health issues. ( Article under the cut )
This, along with finally being at home with my whole family, has really raised my spirits. I went looking through a lot of my old art and emo scrawlings from high school and I feel like I found a little bit of myself again. I was looking through a bunch of old scraps from when I'd doodle during class or just because I felt like it, and I realized I need to just draw more. Write more. Get my feelings out; fucking power through this. I knew the solution all along, as I told myself and as many wonderful people who do care about me told me-- "Be yourself and don't give a fuck"-- but now I'm really harnessing the power of that statement. I've realized that ever since I made Madrid, I've wanted him to be something real. I found some fantasy races I made up near the end of high school-- the Cretians and the Naulhaiti-- and I even found a comic I started about them.
The problem that remains is substituting a female character suitable for the situation that isn't a representation of myself. Referring toBlatantly drawing myself in the comic is dumb. It just exemplifies how Mary Sue the whole thing is, and that's the last thing I want. I almost thought of using Arete, but I'm not much like her. Arete and Edithe are part of their own world, Azeroth, and that's where they belong. I don't think Madrid and Arete would get along very well anyway.
I need to create a female character that can properly interact with Madrid and slip into the story of Sunspot, but I don't know if I'm capable. What I think is going to end up happening is that I'll draw biographical comics as I usually did, and Madrid's backstory and everything will be mentioned in a fourth-wall-shattering recount of events: "I wanted to draw you a comic, but I wanted to act AND direct. Because of my selfishness-- something Sunspot is supposed to tell the reader NOT to be-- that idea is on an indefinite hiatus." And Madrid would shrug and say, "Sounds like everything else in your life." So instead of letting him free in his own world within my imagination, he's chained to me in this corrupted world to tolerate my whining and lack of inspiration and mundane obstacles I "endure".
When I learn to let go, don't worry Madrid! I will set your body freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee |
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[24 Nov 2009|08:30 pm] |
Stolen from oolong, xbiteyourtongue, and darkmistyday
You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. (:
1. First Name Rita. Other names include Arete, Rabbit, Zomb, and "bead girl". I'm "lime_gl0wstix" pretty much everywhere on the Internet.
2. Age 19. Too old.
3. Location I live on campus at Cal State University, Long Beach. My home is in the valley.
4. Occupation Student in pre-Illustration. I don't think I'm doing very well.
5. Partner Alone.
6. Kids I don't believe I'll be having any.
7. Brothers/Sisters An older sister, rapturedsound and a younger brother, Paul.
8. Pets A red-tailed boa constrictor named Topaz.
9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life
- Starting a new semester for school eventually. My planned schedule is something like Comic Spirit, Drawing, Art History 111B, Artists in Their Own Words, and maybe Japanese 201. I can't take too many GEs too early on or my schedule will be too impacted by art classes and I won't have time for them all. - Jamie and I are planning to go to Paganfest next May, where we'll see Finntroll, Eluveitie, Alestorm, and Arkona. With most of the new hardcore coming out sounding like shit, folk metal is energized enough to fill the gap for me. - Speaking of music, I've been listening to mostly oldschool stuff, like mid 90s gabber and more Italo Disco. - I'm going home for Thanksgiving. Thank god. - That's uh... that's about it..
10. Parents My mom and dad are wonderful people. My mom likes to play Facebook games with me, and recently my dad suffered nerve damage in his arm, along with several other problems. From what I know there are 3-4 things wrong with him, including a shot rotator cuff. He can't lift his right arm more than halfway, but declined the surgery for several reasons. One, the surgery would fuse his vertebrae, which could result in him losing his voice, paralysis, or even death. The surgery isn't even a guaranteed solution to his problem because of his other contributing injuries. To deal with the pain, my dad's been prescribed some pretty intense medication, and he's trying not to get addicted to it. We're hoping that the longer he refrains from using his right arm, the better he'll recover. The doctor hasn't been able to make any predictions, considering my dad is one of the first people to ever refuse surgery for this issue. Either it'll stay the same or get better, because there's little to no chance of it getting worse.
11. Who are some of your closest friends? At school I mostly hang out with Seth and Ryan. Seth's been really busy lately so I've been hanging out with Ryan more. Both are political science majors and live in the same suite together. Since quitting WoW, most of my online conversation has been with Jennii reivena and Jamie. |
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[17 Nov 2009|09:53 pm] |
 | I've been trying to draw more. I'm going to try to update a drawing a day, though I'll most likely fall behind like I do with everything else.
Art class is a whole bunch of cocks. I'm losing more and more faith in myself every day.
My appointment with the psychiatrist is scheduled for the 30th. Hopefully they won't ask about whether or not I'd let Freddy Krueger fuck me this time. |
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[02 Nov 2009|12:25 am] |

Why do I love it?
Maybe some sort of heinous radioactive backfire reminiscent of Chernobyl will sweep the land, sprouting deformities of skin and appendages among the general population. Then I will find love. |
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[31 Oct 2009|01:58 pm] |
 Bitches don't know bout my evil deed
HAPPY HALLOWEEN |
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[19 Oct 2009|11:52 pm] |

Sometimes I think my only muses are my creations. In some sort of sick, cyclical conspiracy, I stay in that world so I can further create it... so I can stay there.
"Bad enough they lie... they always promise they'll stay."
You're the only one who's stayed. Hopefully because you wanted to. |
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[08 Oct 2009|10:54 am] |
Day One: a song
Day Two: a picture
Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
Finally getting around to this again. Midterms, art projects, papers, museum visits, dentist appointments, field trips, and so on...
For your YouTube clips I will present a double-feature for my absence: three random clips and a short movie.
Back when cartoons were hand-drawn and hilarious:
Maru the cat. Most of the videos are relatively silent.
Badass Belgian Beatboxing. WHAM ALLITERATION
And for the short movie, one of my current obsessions: Suur Toll (Big Tyll/Tyll the Giant).
It's separated into two parts above at a total of 15 or so minutes. It's based on a story of Estonian mythology, more of which can be read about here if you're confused. It's haunting and bizarre and I love it!
Off to class again...
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[26 Sep 2009|04:22 pm] |
Day One: a song
Day Two: a picture
Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
- Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
Okay well, since I'm not very good at doing this daily, I'll give you a BUNCH of sites to make up for it.
1. I believe this was linked on kandykidz, but this string is really worth it. It's a little bit thicker than the usual 5yd string (by perhaps a millimeter) but MUCH more durable, doesn't fray, 144 yards, and stretches a good amount without being loose. Shipping is a little insane (I think it was like $8?) but if you combine it with a few other items it's not so bad. I haven't tried this black string yet, but it's the same thickness and twice the length (288yd) for a similar price. Shipping is about the same, however.
2. I was recently introduced to the Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab by a friend on Warcraft, Alinor. She was lamenting that they didn't sell "imp's ears" (sampler sizes) of their motherfucking Hellboy-themed perfume oils, to which I sympathize with her greatly. Check out their other stuff too. They have tons of themed perfumes from Gothic poetry to steampunk to Neil Gaiman short stories to traveling snake-oil salesmen to Alice in Wonderland. Don't you want to smell like the Cheshire Cat?!
P.S. Hellboy's specific scent includes "aftershave, candy wrappers, brimstone, and cat". Such scents incite nothing less than the epitome of manliness in my mind.
3. Send this short prose along to all of your near and dear anime-drawing associates that say, "Anime is my style, so it doesn't matter if I learn realism."
4. If you have friends that are more of the American strain, or if you're ready for the most bittersweet, hysterical exposition of events in self-taught art, check out Rob Liefeld's 40 Worst Drawings.
5. I love the classic Pokémon, but not all of them. "We buried our heads in the sand and let robots worm their way into our ranks." Sound familiar, ThoBro?
6. And last but certainly not least... the ever-amazing Hate By Numbers at Cracked.com.
Tomorrow I'll try to be more on top of things! And only a day left to ink and color Dustmeat... and do my art projects... and study for Art History... FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
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| FFFFFFFFF I SKIPPED A DAY |
[24 Sep 2009|02:13 pm] |
Day One: a song
Day Two: a picture
- Day Three: a book/ebook/fanfic
- Day Four: a site
- Day Five: a YouTube clip
- Day Six : a quote
- Day Seven : whatever tickles your fancy
Yesterday was very busy. I had my first official Natural Disasters Lab (no thanks to furlough days) which went from 11 to 1:45, and then right after I had the Natural Disasters Lecture from 2-3:15. I got home after eating nothing but a granola bar and I felt pretty wiped out. My schedule is currently...
| Time | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday |
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| 8:00AM | | | | | | 9:00AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM | JAPN 101 9:00-9:50AM |
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| 11:00AM | | | GEOL 110L 11AM-1:45PM | |
| 12:00PM | | AH 111A 12:30-1:45PM | AH 111A 12:30-1:45PM |
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| 2:00PM | GEOL 110 2:00-3:15PM | | GEOL 110 2:00-3:15PM | |
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| 4:00PM | | ART 131 4:00-6:45PM | | ART 131 4:00-6:45PM |
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| 7:00PM | | | It also took me an eternity to make this table from scratch! Woohooo!
Anyway, for your book.
I've been reading mostly my textbooks, but in terms of leisure reading I've been slowly thumbing through Eve Forward's Villains By Necessity. It's an interesting novel so far (I'm only on chapter 3) with some intriguing characters, albeit predictable at times. I'm hoping the further I get into it, the more the characters will develop an hopefully introduce some meandering in their personalities. The author has revealed a hint of backstory for the main character, an assassin named Sam, that may pertain to his present state as a villain.
It's written by the aunt of a friend of mine on Warcraft, John. We've hung out a few times and he's a pretty simple guy, but his family is breathtaking. His father, Bob Forward, has worked on several TV series as an animator, writer, and is an author of his own book and movie. His mother, Sharon Forward, attended school at Cal State Long Beach (my campus), and works for Disney. She lent my sister and I a book each according to our interests, mine being Villains By Necessity and Julia's being Dragon's Egg by Bob Forward Sr.
Augh, I'm late for 2D... and I still have to pick up bond paper! Yuck! |
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